I guess I can start with the most recent and work my way to babbling about everything else.
This past weekend I did the American Lung Association Fight For Air Climb.
I climbed 47 flights of stairs to the top of the US Bank building in downtown Milwaukee. Since mom has been diagnosed with COPD, it was a personal event and fundraising campaign, but it was also something I never had done before. Stairs usually aren't my friend. I fall up them and down them. Luckily, there was none of that. I also happened to be the 19th top fundraiser out of the over 3000 people that participated, which is pretty cool. I won't say I'll never do it again, but I certainly have to figure out a better way to train for it. IT WAS HARD. And to think there was some girl who did it seven times in one hour, not only blows my mind, but reaffirms the fact that there ARE crazy people out there.
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| I did it! |
The other major thing that is happening right now is we are seriously looking at buying a house. We just got life insurance. Now we're looking at houses. Adulting this much is really freaking me out. I didn't think it would, but it is. I mostly think it's because I'm feeling very rushed by people right now and I don't like that. Our landlords are currently in Mexico, so we are awaiting an answer from them on what they are willing to do as far as our lease goes. It is up May 1st and I've asked them if they would consider a 3 or 6 month lease, to give us some time to look and really comfortably choose the right home. Not knowing that answer and being pushed is making me a bit irritated to the point where I sort of want to say let's just forget it for this spring and we'll try again next year. We'll get that answer probably tomorrow and we've been long time tenants so I expect they will work with us a bit.
As a first time home buyer, I plan to take my time. And I plan to find the RIGHT house. There are things I will compromise on cosmetically, but there are also things I am absolutely not compromising on and being told I should is not making me happy. If I'm spending money on investing in a house, it's going to be what I want. Otherwise I might as well continue to rent where I feel content.
In a few short weeks I will turn 35. I normally don't have an issue with birthdays. Actually, almost never. 27 was a hard birthday for me, which I realize is a weird number, but for whatever reason I really took it hard. Like I was supposed to have so much done by 27, is what I thought at the time. I think I'm feeling the same way about 35. I should have already bought a house by now. I should have already had a financial planner by now. Why did I JUST get life insurance? What else am I missing?
What else should I have done by now?
I'm feeling a little lost at work right now with a new boss and another new boss coming within the next quarter. I got a pretty significant raise this year. I had to fight and fight hard for it. I deserved it though. I regret nothing about fighting for my worth. Things are just so uncertain at work with where we are going. I just feel like I'm being pulled in so many directions, I can't do well at any one thing because I'm doing everything. Thinking about where my next career move is/should be...it's all just a lot happening. I sort of feel like I just want to hide under my covers and let the world happen around me. I'll just stay in this job and rent until I'm dead. That solves everything I think. Or I wish I had someone who would just do all these things for me and then let me know when everything is done.
Life man. Life.
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| Enough said. |
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